I don't know what it is about music that brings back memories...
Not so much memories of things I've forgotten (which anyone who knows me knows how I forget 75% of everything that happened the day before...) but memories of what emotions used to be.
Not sure when it happened, but for years I've been numb to any time of human emotion... I can try to pretend that an emotion I create for myself is real, but as quickly as I start to believe the lie, the vail is lifted and I'm exposed to the truth that what I thought was real was just a way to feel human for a short time.
I don't mind being in the state I am... I have no feeling towards loss, disappointment, love, abandonment, etc. I live day to day feeling the same, in the same mindset that is slightly numb, but I do count on my close friends for an occasional laugh to snap me out of the norm.
Music is the only thing that makes me feel real anymore. It takes me back to what I was and who I was at that time. I can feel the same emotions being drained from my body over the years of my youth. It's an amazing feeling.
I can feel my pulse start to beat faster and my brain functions at a higher level. It's almost at a meditative state where I can fully grasp every perception and dimension available to everyone that's ever seen more or discovered the unknown.
Music is my addiction. It brings be enlightenment.
